These past two days I've been trying to read properly,,I don't know if it's because I haven't read for a long time,,or because I'm too eager to rush,,I can't continue reading consistently,,I read for a while and then want to stop,,since there are no games installed on my computer,所以大概就是會上網逛一下,不過同時內心也一直督促自己要看書,所以其實也無心上網,這些情形就這麼樣的一直在重複的發生…
大四時,有一段黑暗時期,當時不管是課業、專題、考試都一塌糊塗,整個狀況跌到谷底,那時聽到某些歌曲時,Emotions often uncontrollably collapse entirely。Yesterday I deliberately looked for some MSN chat records I had intentionally saved from before,Inside were conversations where I told my friends about my situation at the time,I want to make myself remember how miserable I was then,Remind myself not to repeat the same mistakes,Learn the lesson。
Now, for me,It feels like going back to the starting point,An opportunity for me to start over,I must seize it well,才能一扫过去的阴霾,扭转情势,我的未来才有希望。如果我还再不努力的话,那我活着…..还有意义吗?
Today I opened my long-dusted Java book again,Planning to properly study it during this four-day holiday。And this…..is already my third time challenging it!
I have quite liked Java since vocational school,At that time, I hadn’t learned any programming language,所以只是單純喜歡這名字,沒其他因素。上大學後剛好有機會修到這門課,但是 !!! 我竟然沒好好學,修完了卻什麼也沒學到,之後便買書來自修。第一次買了當初老師推薦「Java自學手冊」,後來看到陣列的地方卡住,就停了。隔了好一段時間,突然又想學,在程式論壇相中一本很多人推薦的「JAVA 2初學指引」,又敗下來K,後來一樣又在陣列的地方停了下來。